Bono has been joining me lately during my crafting hours. These are such beautiful albums. How much do I love the song “One”?

Of course they also bring me back to my super-young adulthood and periods of psychological unrest. Aren’t we glad we’re past all that now? Aren’t we? Then again I wasn’t doing so well 10 years ago, either. It’s more like I have intervals of Ordinary Time, but that doesn’t mean I’m ever ‘better’, or ‘beyond’, or ‘quite right now’.

Xopher walking on Lake Carmi, Franklin, Vermont

Ya know it doesn’t seem to matter how much or how little I sleep. I can have a lousy night and still feel just average the next day; I can sleep seemingly plenty and still feel like crap. And in a similar vein, Saturday night I eschewed burgers and fries and ice cream when we went out to eat, yet I still had a lousy night. I feel so exhausted today, and I didn’t even buy into that DST bullshit (I’m protesting and shifting my life an hour later, which is to say, NOT shifting my life). I really can’t remember the last time I felt physically “fine”, in fact. So just f*ck it. Do what you want, body. You’re gonna do what you want anyway.

I’ve referred to this before. I keep a line-a-day-journal. In recent times it’s taken the form of “one great thing from the past 24 hours and 3 blessings” a.k.a what is sometimes called (ick) a “gratitude journal.” But I’m going to morph it into a combined anti-gratitude and gratitude journal. You should definitely think of a great thing that recently happened every morning when you get up, and count your blessings. But first you should think of what was the worst thing that happened in the last 24 hours, and what are three other things you have to be ungrateful about. Because that way when inevitable bad things happen, you won’t feel, on top of bad, the feeling that you are stymied, that this bad thing wasn’t SUPPOSED to happen, you wuz robbed, you were gypped. With practice, you’ll instead think, aha, this is the Bad Thing, or one of the Bad Things, due to happen today; right on time!

I can’t tell you how good it feels to be free of illness AND fully restored to mobility. I can bend every which way. I can carry weights upstairs. I have neither a splitting headache nor the urge to go back to bed. And perhaps not incidentally I am totally kicking it at work. I feel GREAT!

Xopher finally put up the stainless backsplash today!

Yesterday I started feeling exhausted around 11 AM – today I made it to about 4 PM – keep on keepin’ on.

I’m gonna wait for the midnight pear…

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We tend to think of ourselves as having bodies. The brain will think, “I have a body.” But every now and then the body, so to speak, hits the brain upside the head. Says, “Don’t you EVER call me your fucking body! YOU’RE my fucking BRAIN!”