Will open each of my journals, in chronological order, to the middle page.

Will post the first entry.

4/18/87 – age 17.5

“therapy time. calm down. whatever needs be done needs be done. spiritual development. be receptively perceptive. take into account everyone close to you. do all you can starting with what you deem most helpful. keep up your self-pride as soon as you find your direction.”

Or two.

4/19/87

“concerning simplicity & practical physical matters

simplicity is something you always seem to be yearning for. well babe you’ve got it, if you want it. you know exactly everything & how it should be.”

If that’s not a 17-year-old talking I don’t know what is.